This Blog!

This blog contains all the poetry I have written. Fictionpress is keeps on messing up my format and it makes me mad so my poems will be here and my other blog will be for my babbling. Lol.
I'll upload some each day starting from when I first started writing. You'll notice the dates on the posts. And yes all of these are copywritten. So no stealing.

Fight For Life

there's a war inside me
that no one else can see
i'm fighting for my future
i'm fighting for my life

sometimes there is no hope in sight
but then i start to see the light
run towards it as fast as i can
tying not to fall down again

my demons are chasing me
my past is haunting me
i'm fighting for my future
i'm fighting for my life

past and present are fighting
the battles determine my life
my future is looking brighter
the war is almost over

sometimes the light may fade
but it will never go away
there's now a light inside my heart
to lead me through the dark

my mask

Wearing a mask around others I seem happy
But when that mask comes off I only tear myself down
No one can tell that I'm still depressed
And that's the way I hope to keep it
Crying in my room all alone at night
And then wearing that mask by the morning light
I keep myself this way
Because I'm NOT going to take that crap ass medicine again
No I'm sorry I'd rather live with depression
Not to mention it lets me know I'm real
So during the day you'll see me wearing that same old mask
That makes you think I'm happy and carefree
But really I'm crying inside
And this time
No one knows why.

i want a new life

I;m so sick of this life
I just want to erase it
And start fresh
Maybe then I wouldn't make the mistakes
That have ruined my mind
Maybe then I wouldn't be thinking
Of ways to fuck up my life
Maybe then I would be happy
In your arms where I know it's true.

Help

I'm so confused
And I don't know what to do
I'm so afraid
Of life each day
Thinking what's going to go wrong today
Nothing goes right anymore
I don't even know myself
I guess what I'm saying is
Help

you think i have everything?

So you think I have everything?
You have no idea.
Where do you get everything out of nothing?
I have food to eat and clothes to wear
But still I have nothing.
I have a house and a home
I have friends and family
But still I have nothing.
You don't understand?
You still say that I have everything?
That I have more than you do?
Well you're wrong!
You have much more than me
For you have happiness and self respect
I don't have that
And without it you have nothing.

i have all this pain

I have all this pain
Locked inside
From the world
I will hide
I can not cry
I can not show
The feelings that I feel
Because I can't let you know
That I am real.

please don't go back

Sometimes you worry me
And I think you're going back
Back to that life of horror and destruction
That no one should have
I've been trying to fight the feeling
But it's hard when you see the signs
Please don't go back
I don't want to see you die.